Judas Iskariot Sept 17, 2017 6:02:28 GMT 11
Post by Deleted on Sept 17, 2017 6:02:28 GMT 11
Name: Judas Killmore Iskariot
Trainer Type: Doctor/Breeder
Hometown: Ecruteak City
Appearance: Decidedly passing from the youth of his life into his prime, Judas bears a fairly athletic and moderately defined build. A sturdy man of around six feet in height, he's fit but tends to lean on the slim side with long legs and a slightly elongated head. Rough, serious angles comprise his features, with a sharp jawline and a squared chin. Short jet black hair is neat and combed back to leave only a stray strand on his forehead, and dark brows are stern and solid above piercing blue eyes. The faintest of grey begins to brush the hair near his temples, tinting it as it fades away into a pale trace of a shadow along his jaws. Even despite his angular bone structure and stern features, Judas can seem surprisingly gentle at a second glance, often faintly smiling or with a worried expression about him, colorful irises expressive and soft behind the round wired glasses that frame them.
More prominently this softness shows in the way Judas holds himself and moves though. his gentleness bleeding through in the very way he performs his actions. A softly spoken man with a slightly musical voice, Judas tends to carry himself loosely and carefully, he stands straight but tends to still sink into himself a bit, giving him an air of seeming smaller then he is, his shoulders often slumped and his posture hinting at uncertainty often, his stance generally slightly off center, his hands drifting to each other to massage his other hand or arm as if from a nervous habit or as though he is unsure what to do with them. His gaze tends to flicker often, observant but shy, often glancing away from himself or downward rather then towards others.
A man of naturally pale complexion tanned somewhat through hours of work in the sun, Judas bears his fair share of scars, more perhaps then the average man might, though none are anything particularly notable or severe, coming often from his time spent handling pokemon and his time trekking through routes or growing up frequenting the minor perils of a forest, leaving small silvery and pink marks lacing his forearms and shins with thin marks scattered across his chest and back, a few trailing down his midsection. But one would be hard pressed to ever glimpse any but perhaps the few across his hands, in his dress Judas tends to adopt a more formal look that hides away much of himself, preferring dark blue slacks and a pressed white business shirt, matched with a dark blue tie and often a pale vest. Dark work boots compliment and finish the look, though in the colder times of year he also wears a heavy coat of pale blue to match, complimented sometimes with a scarf and gloves.
Personality: If one were to find all the positive attributes that best describe Judas, sensitive, compassionate, caring, and empathetic might all end up on that list with ease. Indeed, for his stern set of features and piercing blue eyes, as a second look might reveal even just from his appearance, Judas is a very warm and gentle person, earnest, honest, and always there to lend a hand, a shoulder, or a kind word. It's not difficult to find a smile on his features, if often a bit nervous of one, and he tries frequently to remain in good nature and mood, friendly and quite easy to get along with after some prodding to open up. He's also one to assist anyone in need, even a stranger, and humble always, quick to play himself down or uncertain around thanks and praise. He takes what he does seriously and passionately, and still holds much to the ideals of the way he worked before, putting the needs and cares of others before him, sacrificing selflessly just to see another well or happy. He hates the spotlight and tends to be embarrassed by praise or show avoidance of it, but even so a little tends to go a long ways, and though he would be content to see his work repaid only by it's effects and nothing else, when others notice him it tends to touch him deeply, and he is often flustered when others go to lengths for himself even if he has previously done the same for them.
In fact, Judas is easily embarrassed in general, often at a loss to respond when shown warmth, love, and praise. Introverted by nature, though he enjoys people from a distance he still is more familiar with the interactions of his quiet simple hobbies, from his hours upon hours ever since his childhood of finding a book and a tranquil place to his fine taste in music and listening to classical pieces or playing his violin with practiced hand, even to the repetitive but meditative tasks or embroidery and crochet. But none perhaps are so noticeable to those who do not spend time with him often as his care and love of pokemon. Indeed much about them fascinates him, he loves nurturing, raising, and caring for them, and while he would never call himself a breeder he has never not tried to spare the time to care for one. Especially flying types, ah how he loves flying types, envying their grace and their flight, doting on especially the pidoves he remembers from his childhood though most any and all bird is beloved to him.
For all Judas' kindness, it wouldn't take long to notice that Judas can however be... A bit timid when it comes to people and not pokemon. Anxiety, nervousness, worry, all these things are quick to spring to the forefront of his thoughts when pressed into uncomfortable situations or when things start to go wrong. He doesn't like the unknown, and while he is a passionate scholar and has his loves for mystery and myth, new situations and new people often leave him awkward and intimidated, and he can take some time to adjust to new ways of life, new circumstances, or even just new people, often attempting to abstain entirely from social gatherings that involve almost entirely people he doesn't know, and if pressured by his own self or another into attending will often stick like glue to a familiar body or hover in a quiet corner. While he seeks to at least broaden his horizons and push himself out there more, he still struggles trying new experiences and balks at even hints of danger, cowardly when it comes to the thought of himself or others being harmed. When or if anything is amiss, he'll also usually the first to blame himself for it, growing anxious, distraught, or depending on the company even scared and sinking to attempts to rectify the situation, even if it could not have truly been his fault or his doing. He has a strong dislike of conflict and will often try to immediately mediate between others and find a peaceful solution, though when faced directly with it tends to turn submissive and meek, easy to intimidate and far more likely to subject himself to abuse then stand up. There is some boldness to him though, and when faced with the danger of another Judas will often seek to intervene, even if it would mean endangering himself, a reluctant thing to him yet often justified by his desire to save another above himself and remove them from danger or other less tangible harm in his place.
To find a cowardly and meek man bold to defend others might seem strange from an outside perspective, but perhaps better explained by one coming to know Judas better and realize the low self-image the man has. His dress might speak of a proud man, formal and self assured, but all manner of Judas is quite the opposite, he is polite and formal in demeanor but lacks any form of self-confidence. He worries and frets often of what others think of himself and how to be better or more helpful, taking badly to those who would crush him underfoot and sinking into himself. Though he is not naive, Judas tends to believe and take what others say for truth, less so for the positive and more for the negative, his manner perhaps optimistic to others but often more dampened towards himself. But that is not to say those of a flip side don't share strong influence on him, and if anything, while he will often deny praises given him, his submissive nature tends to find him naturally gravitating towards others who are kind and uplifting, or even just those of a strong will and personality. Those he subconsciously thinks can protect him, or merely be by his side and support him, those that leave positive or powerful influence on him. He enjoys the presence of people in general really, and though he hates interaction is satisfied to find a place at the edge of crowds, not participating maybe or doing so only in some small unnoticeable way, but reveling in having the company, especially that of those familiar to him and comfortable to him.
Perhaps some of this can go towards explaining Judas' empathy, he has a strong affinity for being able to feel and sense other emotions, often himself being easily affected by them and latching onto them. A loving soul, he tends thus to seek to assist others, seeking to please and help others be at ease and joyful, finding a smile of his own almost impossible when others around him are in good cheer. Giving at his core, even beyond self-sacrificing, even the small boons he aspires to give to others, the kindness of a greeting or a thank you, the pleasantry of sharing or courtesy. He's an intelligent man, certainly, and not naïve to his flaws of being trusting in others and being so helpful even without real need for it, but it is within his job, and indeed his way of life to aid others, and he finds great joy and love in helping others or even just brightening a day...
And great frustration and sorrow in being helpless or unable to do enough. Nothing is a greater fear to Judas then being helpless for another, or even, to a smaller extent, to himself. A self-cultivated fear of being a disappointment stemmed from feelings of being never quite good enough even when others assure him he is leave him striving to benefit others and become better, more giving, more gracious, more skillful and helpful, and nothing ruins Judas more or scares him more then being helpless in a situation or even truly being to blame for something, which often, feel the same, for to be helpless is to be at fault for not doing anything in his mind... Blame is a dark cycle for him, often leading to a dark spiral of guilt and depression. A lover and a dreamer, when crushed by himself or another he falls easily and hard, often having a hard time settling out again and having difficulty being around others even when isolation often proves only disastrous as a heavy conscience preys on his mind.
History: Judas grew up as an only child, well loved by his parents even if their work prevented them from always being around, or even being around often at all. Part of a well endowed family, they owned many pokémon even without either being in trade or business involving them, and Judas spent his childhood in a large almost mansion-like old house or in the woods beyond where he called home in Ecruteak City, large but antiquated place beloved by his parents for its gentle warm atmosphere and feeling of venerability even as they often traveled a ways for work or spent days, even weeks at a time in other cities as business people. He didn't know the company of many others in that time, isolated as he was, but he learned quickly, picking up fast on reading and teaching himself even before he started a formal education out of curiosity and a decided love of literature, poring through the easier to read basic introductory books and struggling through fascinating ones on pokemon, much of their words lost but their effects not. He spent many days within the walls of that mansion alone, wandering its floors and finding books or pokemon to occupy hours and hours of his time, or roaming the very edge of the woods and reading in the grass or studying the wildlife carefully. Quickly he would especially find a love of the many birds within the residence and the nearby woods, befriending them and caring diligently for them, occasionally even adopting ones from the woods into his flock. It wasn't uncommon, in fact, to find two or three chubby flying types with him or upon his shoulders, especially the younger first evolutions, pidgey and starly, taillow and pidove, trained and comfortable enough to his presence to perch on his shoulders or come to his hands. Even from a young age, like many other boys, he had a love of pokemon, and the birds were his closest companions for that, raised in numbers in his house and fascinating to a dreamy child who could get lost for hours just watching the creatures flying so high above in the skies.
In school, when such a thing came into his life, Judas did well, if perhaps a bit reserved and shy, much more hesitant to start friendships and go to extra-curricular activities then others, but with hard work and a quick mind. In fact, Judas loved school. Not necessarily the place itself, the schools he went to were good but nothing remarkable and had their fair share of.... Bad memories that only furthered the development of Judas' social awkwardness as his skinniness, glasses, nervousness, and grades labelled him as a target for those who loved putting others down or were upset at their own lives and sought to take someone they thought better but weaker then themselves down a notch, but he made it through. He loved to learn afterall, he loved to examine things, to understand them. Science and music especially were his strongest suits, he drifted swiftly to the strings and the studies of examining the ways of the world hit right in his interests, but when time came to decide a career he found he wanted more, then being a scientist, to be a doctor. To learn how to help people and pokémon, how to heal them and keep them well. The loss, perhaps, of several of his birds over his childhood out of age or some common illness and injury had influenced this, he realized that death was a natural part of life, but it didn't stop him from feeling that perhaps there was.... More that he could do to keep those close to him, to keep everyone, alive. Healthy. Happy. No one deserved pain.
Training to be a doctor took time, and much work, but Judas had, among other things, the aptitude and the determination to achieve his goal. In part it was his passion, in part perhaps a feeling of obligation and a fear of failing, of disappointing for falling from such a studious and respectable path. So he was a tireless medical student, studying human health in his main time and filling the rest of his time with pokémon until he gained working knowledge at least of both. In time he eventually gained the degree he sought, becoming a paramedic and helping those who were out in the field and could not make it to or had to receive help getting to a hospital, and he found work in Kanto when a spot opened in the Guren Town hospital for another on call paramedic to the nearby routes and the closer other towns. In his spare time he volunteered at Pokémon centers and fostered injured pokémon until they were well enough to be released or found a proper companion, and, while he often drove himself to exhaustion, he spent each day doing something to help others. At least, until disaster struck, the Cinnabar Island volcano erupting and sweeping away the small town on it. After that he was delegated to Saffron on temporary service, and shuffled around from place to place, wherever it was necessary.
Still, Judas wasn't the best with the constant shifting. He didn't really have a defined place anymore, and eventually he came to the conclusion that it was best to resign a while until he found himself again. Or perhaps to see if it was time to try an alternate route, a different way to live his life and change pace for once. At the very least he thought he could do with the perspective, to experience the world in a different manner and try something.... new. He resigned from his work, and, gathering what he had, returned to the familiar lands of Johto, a sketch planned out for an experiment to try. After all, doesn't every boy dream of a pokemon journey?
Goals: To gain bonds with pokemon, find lasting companions, and experience the world, exploring the region and enjoying himself while meeting and helping others along the way.
How did you find us?: Previously a member/Silverwing
- Zodiac animal is Pisces
- Loves Tea
- Addicted to caffeine and will have multiple cups of tea/coffee in a day
- Dislikes soda
- Likes the sight of falling snow
- Mildly nauseated by the sight of his own blood
- Sensitive to the cold
- Mildly intimidated by ghost types
- Alarmed by people touching him
- Has poor eyesight without his glasses
- Hates clothing without long sleeves or pant legs and feels exposed
- Favorite color is blue
- Bi-sexual with a Homo-Sexual lean but tries to avoid his feelings
- Tends to carry a messenger bag and several books
- Loves libraries
- Bothered by bad grammar and spelling
- Prefers paper formats to digital
- Has an accent and tends to use v sounds over w and s or z over th
- Prefers frozen yogurt to icecream
- Tends to hum or softly sing to himself
- Hates Horror
- Bothered by wearing dirty or wrinkled clothing
- Mild insomniac
- Can be clingy with friends/lovers
- Talks to pokemon a lot
- Hates giving orders in battles or engaging in them
- Tends to clam up and not speak or stutter when nervous/embarrassed/scared
- Falls asleep easily when with someone he's close to, often unintentionally
- Small neat script-like handwriting
- Often tired
- Easily jump scared
- Fairly good cook
- Struggles at fast paced action/reaction games
- Likes being early and prepared
- Hates disorganization
- Doesn't tend to tell people when its his birthday but goes out of his way to celebrate other's birthdays
- Bothered by the feeling of stubble
- Dislikes most candy
- Interesting in philosophy and studies ancient philosophers
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